Thoughts day.

I always have too much to think in the middle of the night. Maybe it's because it's too quiet around here and everybody is already asleep and here am I being all nocturnal. No actually, supposedly "Study time"

Met up with an old friend recently, I guess I updated a little on Dayre but just preferred typing so here I am typing everything I feel into the World Wide Web. Yeah, I should know better than to do shit like that right? But then again who reads this blog anyways? Don't think anyone would be reading my ramblings and my crazy random thoughts. Anyways, back to meeting an old friend. Well gotta say, a lot have changed since those years. Haha. Panda was there when I met this friend and I introduced him like how I would. But I forgot, friend and I weren't actually on speaking terms. Not that we fell apart, it's just as time went by we just went our separate ways. Friend's other half wasn't too pleased, to say the least. And it became awkward. Thankfully they left earlier. And I'm left with Panda telling me what I should and should not say in front of people. To be honest, I really let that slip and wasn't actually using my brains when I said it. So I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry that your other half don't like it or don't like me. Because to put it rather frankly, I never liked her anyways, but because it's your other half I decide to be happy for you. I am no longer the person you talk to about finding a new half. Just like I don't talk to you about things in my life. Thank you though, for being a part of my life all those years and helping me through most of my shit. (Which by the way looking back is just..mere memories)

That's just it isn't it? When you look back, everything that matters is nothing now, what matters now will be nothing in future. So what is it that keeps bugging people about the now? I guess I should learn how to be happy now and live for today because it'll all be nothing sooner or later anyways. Not that I hate my life or whatever, I rather love my life now. Peaceful. I haven't had dramas like this since forever. Haha. I think even drama is over phrasing it. My day to day life involves loads of afternoon cuddle naps and cuddle movies. Panda and I watch lots of movies.

So today I decided to make a stand and say Goodbye. It's time to let go of the past. Let go of the people that once matter, let go of the people that hurt me. I need to start new. :)


Toodles.